hey.

just checking in with those who actually read my journals...

i've had a pretty emotional and shitty week this week. for one, my computer is still not fixed...it got the Win32/Cryptor virus and i had my IT get the virus out. turns out that after the removal, some drivers were fried and now we have to wipe the damn thing clean...which means everything get deleted from the computer. operating system, photos, music, drivers, programs... all gone. just great.

second, my senior portrait is coming up and i'm getting my haircut, but i'm trying to get my funding together a little faster and it's just NOT happening for some reason. i also hate my hair at the moment, but that will pass by morning...

thirdly...i had to put my dog down this week...he was 16 years old and had the Cushings disease. This particular disease is when tumor form under the surface of the skin and multiply, all the while going deeper and deeper into the body until the major organs shut down one by one. he began declining in health last week and we knew it was time...he was diagnosed with it five years ago. His name was Beau and right up til the end, he was my mom's dog. he always listened to her when she was home and always looked at her when i told him to do something...he was a hilarious and perfect little dog that could cheer you up with one of his stupid grins and eagerness to play hide and seek. he would always hide under the dining room table...when we took him to our vet...the vet asked us if we wanted to be in the room with him when he passed. we said no because we knew that we couldn't handle it...i practically broke down when the vet asked me to take off his collar...i miss him so much, but i know he isn't in anymore pain..it's been two days but i still feel like crying once a day.

i had a pretty shitty night at work, but at least i made some decent tips. five ours may not seem like much, but when you have a headache and a sore body...it's hell.

i haven't really gotten too much response on the newest pieces that i've put up here and that's always a downer...but i guess i just have to stay positive and hope that next week will be better. maybe i'll post some photos of my late puppy...



to those of you who got this far and actually read through the whole thing and didn't fall asleep, thank you! and sorry you had to sit through a sorrow fest...it means a lot that you even read the first sentence.

thanks again.


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